Thursday, July 23, 2009

Pam's Back

Literally, this is Pam's back (walking through the hospital parking deck leaving today's treatment).
You can kind of see that the left side of her back is darker, kind of red. The burn from the radiation has been significant, some on the back, more on her chest and a ton under her arm. At this point though, the four field burn has ended so those areas will get to heal. The only area still being radiated are her scars on the front. So let the healing begin.


Radiation (substantial amount, but not an overdose) surprised Pam by how tiring it has been. Last week she hit a wall and had a horrible week. This week is much better, probably because she is three days into a lesser treatment. Right now she only has six more treatments, the last will be on Fri. July 31st.


It has been a trudge, but she is ok. Just like we figured, the treatments pretty much ruled Pam's summer.


The next step is hormone therapy, tamoxifen to be specific. The idea of starting it is really a bummer for her and she is wanting to delay it if she can. Subjecting herself to another toxin that is sure to come with more side effects is really not something she wants to do right now. We will see what happens.


More to come.

C323

Thursday, July 9, 2009

There are positives

So Pam had cancer. She thought she beat it and it came back. Negative/negative. Our lives were changed. We as a family went from dull & boring to sick & dull & boring. Cancer has had a huge impact on pretty much every facet of our lives, so many negatives, yet there are positives.

This recurrence was horrible to discover. With it came some serious and justified fears. Ask any cancer patient and they will vouch for how difficult this disease and its treatments can be. Pam didn't look forward to more surgeries and treatments not just for herself, but for all of us.

Pam hit the halfway point of the radiation this week and during her exam with her radiation oncologist (this afternoon), he said she is fit to press on. This summer was really Pam's concern. Chemotherapy during the spring was easier than the first time and was nicely hidden during school hours when it didn't directly affect Josh and Erin. But during the summer, Pam knew it was going to be tough to keep the kids lives normal while devoting several hours each day to going to the hospital for the radiation. What happened was an unexpected positive.

While Pam has trekked to Peoria each day, our kids have been taken in by friends. A play date of sorts nearly every day of the summer. Our kids are very comfy and secure at home and actually some days it is tough for them, Erin especially, to go somewhere. But each day she returns having had a great few hours of connecting with old friends and new. Our fears of this being the summer of misery, unfun in every way for our kids, have been dashed. Pam isn't up for making every baseball game Josh plays in (his schedule was greatly expanded over last years 20 games to about 3 times that), but she has been able to enjoy many thanks to some cooler weather. Erin has gotten to the pool enough times so far to not miss it (thanks in large part to the Bergens and their cement pond).

We have a lot of people who have been so helpful each week. The Bergen, Endres, Waller and Crose families have locked in days to keep the kids. The Boomers and L's fill in the gaps often, as well as many others, like the Benson and Jackson families. (If I didn't mention you by name, just wait, it's probably because I am planning to mention you in a later post along with an embarrassing photo.) You don't know how much concern you have removed from our minds as Pam disappears to the hospital each day.

Thanks for bringing out the positives we didn't think existed.

"And He took the children in His arms, put His hands on them and blessed them." Mark 10:16