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I try to keep these posts a little informative and as light as possible. But since the last post which described treatment #5, Pam has really begun to feel the part of a chemo patient. Chemotherapy is a deep, dark pit of trials. Sometimes, like 4 years ago, the struggle begins instantly and overwhelms the participant(s). And this time it began so well that some of us forgot that the drugs compound week to week, eventually producing the effects we thought perhaps might not surface.

In the past few days the fatigue has really increased. Actually, all the physical difficulties have increased significantly. Sleep is rare and light. Headaches. A sinus infection that her body can't battle is in it's 6th week. And the list goes on and on.

But my plea here is for prayer for her on the emotional level. This physical attack on her body by cancer is accompanied by a terrific battle for her emotions. Lonliness knock s on her door daily now. The fight with cancer weakens you initially, but you can be stronger because of it. Pam experienced this as she fought cancer from 2004-08, growing weaker through 05-06 and stronger through 07-08. Of course the end of 2008 revealed that perhaps the mountain she conquered was actually only a foothill. So, if you happen across this post and read it, I will thank you to say a little prayer for her before you leave.